I want to thank everyone who has followed Marty on his sad journey. I am glad Marty is with God, I loved him that much. Marty's pain and suffering has taken it's toll on everyone Although I have suffered along with Marty, as well as the rest of the family, the healing can begin. God has seen me through this far and I know he won't let me down now, I ask for your prayers because only God can touch our hearts and ease our pain. The pain is so great there are no words to describe it. My sister-in-law Patti sent me a poem that her mama stitched into something for her but i forget what it was. I want to share this with everyone.
The Clock of Life is wound but once
And no man has the power
To tell just when the hands will stop
At late or early hour.
Now is the only time you own,
Live, Love, Toil with a Will,
Place no faith in tomorrow for
The clock may then be still.
Saturday, August 7, 2010
Friday, August 6, 2010
Marty's condition has declined. His heart rate is climbing, his breathing is shallow, it's hard for me to truly explain the difference in his condition. I do know that his time is drawing closer. The Nurse said today she didn't think he would make it till Monday that he is down to hours to a day or two at the most. I've known he was going to die for a couple of months now but somehow I've never really believed it. I think I keep waiting for the miracle when he will arise from his death bed and be healthy again. I think I have always known he wouldn't because it's not in Gods plan. God has bigger and better things in store for Marty. A new body, perfect health and a peace unimaginable. I want this for Marty more than anyone will ever know. i have watch him decline month by month now day by day. It's hard and painful to watch someone you love go through something like this and i wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy, if i had one. I pray that God show his mercy to Marty. I don't want to shorten Martys life but his quality of life is gone. Marty stays on meds to keep him semi knocked out because of the severe pain he is in and the distress with his breathing without the meds Marty would be scared and in a constant panic because he would know just how close to dying he really is.
Wednesday, August 4, 2010
I think everyone has figured out by now that I am June, Martys wife of 15 years. Also I am almost blind, not completely but close. I told you the story of how the employee's of Lowes help with the insurance crisis, but I didn't tell you how someone kept a Taxi paid in advance so I could go where needed without having to walk. I do know that Johnny Bates took care of that but unsure of who or whom helped. Also I'd like to mention a couple of people Marty considers a great friend as well as I, who also worked at lowes at one time. Jack Franklin and wife Diana and Allen Layton and wife Deb. From the depths of my heart I want to say thank you and may God keep you and yours in his hands. Funeral arrangements have been made at Goff Funeral Home in Monterey TN. Due to the fact most of the people Marty worked with works days, visitation will be from 5pm to 7pm with the service to begin at 7pm (same evening) then anyone who wants to or can go to the cemetery can meet there the next day. Marty will be exactly as everyone is used to seeing him, T-shirt, shorts and his signed Lowes vest. Marty wasn't a suit and tie kind of guy he wanted to be himself and thats how he will be. Anyone who would like to say a few words at Martys service please feel free to do so. Brother Randy Bilbrey will be holding Marty's service. Randy and Gina Bilbrey have been our friends for many a year and we love them dearly. If I have left anyone out i'm sorry it was unintensional. My mind is a bit overwhelmed.
Marty had a decent night all things considered. His Nurse Celeste was here earlier today she said his heart rate was staying at around 132, which is faster than it was. Last week it was staying around 120. She also said when his heart rate stays above 150, I forget the exact numbers she gave me, then Martys time with us can be narrowed down to hours. I want to mention that even tho I talk about Marty and his condition as if I were discussing the weather, it is far from easy for me. I am coping and dealing with this situation the best I can and I know God is helping me otherwise I wouldn't be able to handle it at all.
Tuesday, August 3, 2010
Marty came home from Kobacker House today. He is resting comfortably, the Nurse was supposed to come here and get things set up for him before he came home, however, we are still waiting for the Nurse. Marty arrived home about 5:30 pm it is now 8:35 pm and still no Nurse. The Nurse called about an hour ago and said it would be about 2 hours before she arrived. In the meantime if Marty needed any medicine he wouldn't be able to have any because the Nurse hasn't came with it as of yet. I'm not a happy camper about that at this moment. The main thing is Marty is home and he is resting. On a lighter note I hope to be adding more pictures of Marty very soon.